First Sight

I know I haven't been blogging since forever, but here I am now! I've just finished my 2nd semester in NAFA and guess what, I SURVIVED.
After a long journey of crazy hectic college life, I am finally a free man :')

You know to be very honest, it's such a pity since I've just started to blend with my classmates but at the same time I realized we reached the end of sem already. Even worse, next sem there will be a shuffle which meaaaaaans the class won't be the same anymore :(

To be honest, I sometimes wonder how do I met these guys in NAFA that I can claim as my friends now in NAFA. So many things happened in one year.

'Friends' go, friends come. Life is such a cycle. 

At first I have SLC which is basically a group of my Indo friends. We hang out tgt time after time until we are starting to be busy with our own school works and separated to our own departments. Next I have my FD Indo friends which basically are L, T, I, K, C. These are bunch of cool ladies who I really love. They're like my teachers and really, so freaking hardworking.
Then, I have the Teletubitch and don't ask me why it's called teletubitch HAHAH this is like my housemates such as T, LI, F. They are like the idiots of the century but tbh, my life without them would be damn boring.

Next up is the HOF group of friends. That includes D, the only guy there, H, N, Nat, T. I met them in HOF class where all the fashion design classes are combined to one. Basically none of them are my classmates and I can say we are quite close :)

One more is L. I'm quite blur on how we can be close from the first place. He's one funny guy, but we just clicked on how we thinks about stuffs most of the time. It feels like I have a brother in Singapore where I can tell everything to.

Then, my classmates in FD2A3. You guys have been such a great companion. Eventho there are some dramas going on lately but I still love you guys as a whole (:
In addition, I met AD and AN. They're so freakin crazy that I love them so much eventho I cannot claim myself to be superclose with both of them.
Also the burlington people, you guys know who you are<3

It's crazy how sometimes life guided you to someone that all of sudden become an important person in your life. I'm not being overdramatic so wtv, it's just how I think about it. You can know from the first sight that they will play an important role in your life.

Anw, thanks for being there always, hearing all my complains about life and me bitching around but oh well, true friends stay no matter what xx

Happy

Happiness.

What is happiness? 

Is it the one I feel whenever you threw me a (quite cheesy) joke 

The one I feel whenever we talked about anything, even the most random thing in the entire world

Or the one I feel whenever we met each other?

Life without your dearest one (or two) (or three?)

If you ever wonder what does it feels like to be separated with someone (or many) you are SUPER close to, it feels horrible I guarantee. Especially when they met someone new already, you'll feel left out. It's not that I'm gonna bitch around and complain about it, the main problem is actually me, myself.

I find it kinda hard to be in a new sircumstances, following the fact that I am a Taurus (which clearly doesn't like drastic changes), and I find it awkward to get to know someone new WHICH explain why I am so freakin quiet and dead in front of some people I just met.
I hate the fact that I'm not that good at being interesting or attractive, really. I've tried to be more open and friendly towards new people around me but it doesn't seem to be working out. Not sure whether this is actually happening or it's just me and my own insecurities, but everyone (really literally everyone) seem to blend in easily with their new environment and class.

I'm not gonna lie, at first I was freaking out knowing that I would be all alone without anyone I'm close with in my new class. It felt so weird. I got no one to talk to, no one to be crazy idiot with, no one to go lunch with, etc. I missed my VA1C despite how weird that class was <3
Slowly I started to know my classmates more and more. Eventhough I still felt awkward with some (I admit), but I'm really grateful that they're not being snobish. I'm hoping that I can be friend with you guys without ever feeling awkward in the future<3

Note to self: Please just stop being a social-awkward weirdo, Natasha. Like seriously.

<3

Hardest —random thoughts of the day

The hardest thing isn't about “moving on”//

It's the mindfulness knowing that you cannot come back. That's it. You chose to walk away and eventually someone will replace you on where you stayed before. 

//I'll wait for you

But eventually I'll have to go as well

23:55

You know everything is so fucked up when your home doesn't feel like home anymore. More likely a World War II. 

祝你新年快乐！

Hey guys happy new year 2014! (; 

2013 has been quite a journey, agree? I finally reached 17, moved out to Singapore, and made quite a decision to be alone for now. Such a roller coaster ride. 

This new year I'm just lucky enough to be able to celebrate it in USA *yay* 

I met new people here, culture-shocked as well. Move back a bit, I celebrated this Christmas' Eve with my dad's ex boss' family in New York with a simple warm dinner. We traded Christmas gifts and stories, they're such a warm-hearted family *i love you guys!* 

Tbh my family never really celebrated Christmas. No Christmas tree, no gifts. Quite sad knowing all my friends are like super excited with Christmas while for me it's just like an "oh okay" event lol

ANYWAY

I spent my New Year's Eve watching this Le Rêve The Dream 

MEANWHILE

Some people spent their evening watching Maroon 5 concert 

Or Calvin Harris

Or Alesso

Or come by to Wynn to meet G-Dragon

I'm freakin sad.

Me: "Dad can we just watch Maroon 5?"

Dad: "What?"

Bro: "Uh uh it's in Mandalay Bay! Super close to our hotel tho"

Dad: "(speaking to a man in the phone)…okay 5 tickets for tonight booked already right? Okay okay good thanks."

Me&Bro: "…"

Btw everyone's been asking me about the 2014 New Year's Resolution 

I always made one every year but rarely accomplished any HE HE *insert awkward smile face here*

So here's my 2014 resolution:

— it's a secret

Kbye and happy new year once again everyoneeeee! :* I love you!

<3

</3

Know why some people keep their walls so high? 

Maybe because they're just afraid and scared

Or maybe they're saving their heart for someone already